Disorienting Effect. in love..?

 Good Late Evening kay... ticking 12,.. yet some Kay, is in deep thoughts about her Koo.. don't read if in hurry..

- From very First,. I don't know anything about her, yet felling like, on next turn I might fall in front of her, or see a glimpse of her next to me. She might look in my eyes.. What if she smiles, looking at me. what if ,she is with someone? what if I met her on a journey? what if she likes me?.. And the meticulous planning about things. I will say, if I met her and then doing it awfully bad in front of her, yet she smiles.

- Have you felt the urge..? The never ending loop, and all I am doing is spiral in it, around same stupid-cupid questions? What she, must be doing.., some privileged, who have the luxury to get to know this from their Koo, even knowing the ans, still dwindle around the same.. How, Why. "tell me more" and sometime making Percious moments between us in this loop, enjoying sometime,. on same repeating question " aur bata".. & All we wanted to listen is,.. "I was just thinking about you" believe me nothing else, gives this special feeling ,of being adored by someone so special,. 

- Missing you a lot, I want to hug you,.. and god knows what,.. special way to communicate this unspeakable feeling, best is truly the Hug.. Imagining (each-other in arms, of other,.. smelling her, felling her warmth & heartbeat, resting the neck on other's shoulder, closed eyes & thoughtless), You know Kay hug is worth a Millon lesson of silence, calmness, peace, security, yet one who doesn't understand those will understand this., what it feels like be in arms of other,. A song is dedicated on it "Lag ja gale" / "Pad ja gale"😜.. 

- Felling like, I will share whatever I have, or what little I have, equally.. wanting to share each laughter with her.., wanting her to be here between my senseless family talks.., wanting her to be the epicenter of my universe..  wanting to see her smile, wanting to see her holding me when I am weak,. wanting to tease her to say "I love you KOo".., wanting to do everything what I fantasize when she says "lets do it" then slowly retreating her coz I fear it might hurt her., wanting to say "I am sorry" without any mistake coz she forgives very beautifully., Calling her name without any reason on repeat.. got hang in middle of my stuff coz I am too busy,  thinking of her.. crying without any reason..

- Slowly we. set lines.. then we start to hurt, we scream, and very later say good bye forever,,  before forever prefix was contrast of this,..

- At last one of you, or if love was true then both.. this song -"Chithi Na Koi Sandesh".. and this never stops. until we see other with someone else. after that its just silence...

- You know, its all about the example, you take to explain yourself.. they will make you to, reach or fall in conclusion,.. Kay, love in all of its ways.. is disorienting, it a roller coaster of emotions, where you are not alone, and that matters coz we see, other by our side, is there... Its truly a felling, worth living all the pain it cause, it teaches that life all about, how less I know and what if I could have made better choices, it teaches one should not hurt anyone, who knows you may never get a chance to ask their forgiveness.. think of it.