a BOLD move..

 I am a bit scared to be honest while writing it.. Coz as most of the time I don't have anyone to seek advice from about what's right or what's wrong, & what should be the trail ahead, life if weird as usual, has taken away the support I needed most, a great person Zainul Sir, to be honest most of me is still a reflection of him, and as usual some close, are cause of the separation. Why I never understand that people who are in my life want me to change to someone, not me often.. ?

Kay you know, I want to write in this all that has come in my head from the day, when good friend of mine Kamli, has left to home and I remain alone here at Ddn, doing nothing sitting whole day, scared felling the past wanting to relive it somehow, forgetting what might unfold without my efforts, You know  this semester I have enjoyed a lot, and so I have suffered a lot, grades, morals and above all "the boundaries" which I respected a lot, So an obvious question is "What are my Boundaries".? 

Tell me one thing why it so happens, that I want to be a protagonist in each movie rather than sticking to one, which is the reflection of my story, and not seeing other as the side character? Do you get it? Did you see a single hero in each movie? neither its meant to be. and nor do we expect him to be, then why don't we remember this in the real life..? hold onto one and stay on its side..

You know, one thing is very imp, bringing the change that is against all the odds, it often Happens that the world around, will be on different page than what you are perceiving it to, maybe at that time, the thing you need most is a hand to hold and if you are like me that hand is in you. You are the Saviour of your own falls.. Remember this

The hardest thing is seeing them sad who matters most in your life, but remember that you should be a visioner of your destiny, even if they are against it at the start you have to push them, and better to lie, only to not hurt them at the moment, till you succeed and then told them the truth only after you make it.