What I learned..

 Good Evening Kay, & last week my older cousin got engaged,.. 

-You know Kay.. Pain looses its significance, so does the happiness, when no-one true.. is there to support or hear me out.. Than, all what's left is bearing,. what I have gained.. You know Kay sometimes bearing pain causes anger, which bring hatred..  Kay its just a (sequence + consequence)  of thoughts & "the care" I wish to feel, all turns to anger.. and eventually hatred.. Its Impatience --} frustration --} Anger --} which we bear and fall...  

- Fear is one of the most bold emotion,, and all the other can be build on it.. but they are fragile, if base trembles.. its stories fall down,  You Know kay if that is replaced by joy.. maybe something better happen.. or may be a natural smile comes, like my dii on the stage, looking at me.. 

- You know Kay sometimes they don't, want to talk even though we haven't committed any harm to them, its just they see me as a traitor.. Coz they somehow felt that with me,, feeling of either getting fooled or betrayed again.. stops us, to move ahead.. I dk weather to be sorry or to be forgiving, its fault of both, a conversation can easily sort this out.. But they don't want to talk.. its a loop you both enters, any time and continue to revolve in it.. Then Impatience..

- Even felt, how well you planned, but then no-one wanted to come? Its simple.. If you are a team and all are willing then it will work,. but if you wish to call someone specific or 2-3, & they denied when they have time.. its coz, they are not sure, and if its something adventurous, (tracking).. which I love.. then we wish to go with someone whom we wish to be with.. Coz that bonding lasts.. Coz with someone and only one,, it's hard to say so, that you might not feel anything.. and in Trek I want to live as I am.. Its simple ask before plan, or plan solo.. who knows the one want.., might join you,..

- Live live and live when you want someone to be with u, and want them to be with you always, coz we forget to do that, with them.. and no-one wish to be dead. Live without any feeling of being judged, Kay might be awkward, but no-one care,..

_Dii even though we haven't talked lot since we grown older,, but I remember all.. And I am happy, To have you_ And you cook beautifully..